That's the way things go right? You spend your time obsessing over such trivial things. I've found that I do it to myself most of the time. I've grown so comfortable with falling apart. It's like I've just become accustomed with failure and I don't even make an effort to change. It's all so crazy. It's good to step outside of yourself sometimes and take a look at everything for what it really is. You know what I mean?

Am I going to change? Probably not anytime soon. I lack the motivation to try an better myself. It needs to happen in my mind before it can happen in my life. I'm just going to roll with it all. It's not so bad really. I came to that today. Well really, it was God who showed it to me, but it really doesn't have to be so painful. I just have to take it for what it is and make the best of it. So congratulations. I'm happy for you, and especially for me. I like being happy too. It's a very nice thing to be. It's easy to seek comfort in misery, but the company is better when you're happy. Unless you like being alone. Yep. Me too.

- posted by Jonathan@ 10:05 PM