God is oh so good to me. I can't believe the way His Spirit can fill such a dead, dry, worthless, body. And He does such great things, even though I am the most unfaithful, hypocritical Christian probably since Judas. I wrote this song, and it's about feeling lost, and being tired of life. Especially the Christian life. I finished it last week.

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Jesus, I'm sorry
Please forgive my lack of faith
But sometimes I worry,
when I can't feel You

And I feel like nothing
I feel so empty
Spirit come fill me,
be my everything

And my body still aches
And I grow tired of this race
And I've no strength left to fake
And I fear I grow faint

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And that's where the song originally ended. I added more later, but it is not important to this story. So today Col. Something (I don't remember his name, I was running on about 7 hours of sleep total for the last three days) preached, and he used this scripture verse and it was just like God was speaking right to me.

"Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverence the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes of Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning it's shame and sat down at the right hand of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart."

Hebrews 12:1-3

I am unable to express my love for God. I know, that no matter what, He will still be with me. A lot of stuff is happening, but none of it matters to me. I have my calling from Jesus Christ, I have His word written upon my heart. That's all I need. I'm not giving up on anything. Till the day I die, I will do the Lord's work. Thank you so much Jesus. Please everyone pray for me and Janesville.

- posted by Jonathan@ 8:47 PM