I don't know. I didn't get all sad this time. I just came home and went to sleep. I guess that's good. I don't let it get me down so much. But it still was pretty hard for me. I just wish you would stop smiling at me and saying hello as if it were all cool. Because that just makes it worse. You were the one who chose this. So at least face up to that fact and be honest with the way you feel. But maybe it makes you feel like you're still an okay guy. Like it's so big of you to present this air of friendship. To make me feel better or something? Whatever man. I don't need your pity. You are the reason any of this is awkward anyways. You are the one who decided that I was not worth your time or friendship. So please just ignore me next time.


It's still cold out, but the birds were singing this morning. So that's a good sign. A hopeful sign.

- posted by Jonathan@ 3:24 PM