Well, I leave tomorrow. I've been spending the past few days furiously packing, and it seems to have paid off. My entire life is in boxes. Yeah, it's. . . not depressing, just weird. Who knows if I will ever be close to my family again? Friends? It is in God's hands though. He's brought me thus far, with me so faithless all the while. Can you imagine what wonderful things he will do with me if I actually submit myself? Me neither, but Habakkuk wouldn't have gotten it either, even if God had explained it to him. He just had to witness it. So I have that to look forward to.

I spent a great two hours at Paul and Barb's tonight. We prayed and had communion together and went outside to discuss astronomy and Star Wars and deep sea exploration. It was so very wonderful and intimate.

I'm very excited for the summer. I will miss many people and many things. Especially my fish (Beauregard and Torpedo, plus I have a snail), my family and friends, and my Mona. I hope everyone reading this has a wonderful summer. And to any of you who have ever shown me any amount of love: I can only say thank you. I know how hard it can be to love, and I know I am not the easiest person to love.

I am that lonely wheat, quietly ground into grain. But it's such a light and a momentary pain.

- posted by Jonathan@ 11:19 PM