Things

- So, I moved to Milwaukee last week.

- I feel. . . all too familiar feelings.

- Friends?

- I'm looking around for music.














I have a lot I'd like to say. But I've been told that I'm not really worth the time. Nor do I possess any redeeming qualities. So I won't bother. I won't pretend that I'm happy though. I'm not depressed or anything, but. . . kind of. . . resigned? Resigned in the fact that people I care about don't even like me. Resigned in the fact that this will be the story of my life.

- posted by Jonathan@ 8:53 PM

 
it never was like this before
I forgot
all the things I thought I was good for
I found myself face down again
Three inches of water--breathing deep

I'm such a piece of shit.
what difference will another year make?

- posted by Jonathan@ 10:06 PM

 
I found out that actually I'm not kicked out. Word. I'm still going to move out at the end of the month. I just don't really want to be a part of this anymore.

I don't know, but it's okay. I really don't mind. I would love to be a vagabond. But freaking responsibility, sheesh. Looking for a job.

Thank you for prayers.

- posted by Jonathan@ 11:26 PM

 
Well, I'm sorry for being overdramatic again. I just found out today (Wednesday) that I have to be out of my apartment by the end of this week. Luckily, my Corps Officer was kind enough to let me have until the beginning of next week, seeing as how I will be gone at an Army function this weekend. So. . . this is kind of short notice?

I know that I don't know much. I know that really, in the grand scheme of things, I'm unimportant. But I know that God cares for me anyways. I know that he has a plan for my life. Even though I don't have a single clue about what the crap I'm doing. Work? College? Home? I don't know anything about these things. I don't know how they fit into my "life" at all. I'm not even sure how to go about figuring it out. I'm just praying.

- posted by Jonathan@ 3:56 PM