I'm in Chicago. It's fun. T&N tour tonight baby! Bye.

- posted by Jonathan@ 10:37 AM

 
I brought back the blog. I guess even though I think most webjournals are lame, I am in turn lame myself. And I just like writing here. And I guess I need the motivation of people reading this to make me write. So yeah. Don't hate.

So, JC right? I'm so in love with him. Like, I don't know. It's just too good. What he does in my life. I haven't seen The Passion yet, but I am most definately looking forward to it. I mean, when I just think about the cross I can hardly help crying. Singing songs like "How Deep the Father's Love For Us", and "The Wonderful Cross" just make me weep. I'm so. . . just thankful to be with my God. He really does it for me.

- posted by Jonathan@ 11:17 PM

 
I like Mona.

I have a job too. It's lame. Bagging groceries. Cleaning stuff up. Lame.

I love Jesus.

- posted by Jonathan@ 8:33 PM

 
Shoot. I'm bummed. Was supposed to go see Mona today. Am not now. Lame. Whatever.

- posted by Jonathan@ 10:01 AM

 
Wow. I have a most beautiful girlfriend. I think it's wonderful how God works. I've prayed for a long time (selfish of me I know) for someone who I could just share what's in my heart with. But I always (tried) to ask God to teach me to depend upon him for my love fully, first. And I guess I've waited a long time, but it's happened in God's time and it's most definitely better for it. I feel like I'm at a great place in my spiritual life. God is teaching me so much about who he is, who he wants me to be, and what he wants our relationship to be. And I guess I'm finally ready to be with another person like I am now. And God knew when I would be ready. And Mona is so great. We've talked and we both agree that we just want our relationship to be what God wants it to be. And I'm so excited. This is what I've wanted. I have a great girlfriend who's so in love with Jesus, infinitely moreso than with me. And I think that's awesome. That's just the way I want it. Thank you Jesus for everything.

- posted by Jonathan@ 4:49 PM

 
I changed the site address. I'm all alone.

- posted by Jonathan@ 7:55 PM

 
I've decided that I don't like webjournals anymore. Don't feel bad if I stop reading yours. I think I am going to change the address on this and not give it to anyone. So, this is your warning I suppose. I'll probably change it tommorrow or something. This is just a heads up.

- posted by Jonathan@ 7:50 PM

 
Wow, wow, wow. I like to repeat, repeat, repeat myself. Hmmm. . .

- posted by Jonathan@ 7:49 PM

 
I had a great Valentine's Day. Thanks for asking.

- posted by Jonathan@ 5:48 PM

 
Beneath the Weight of Words

This is me in front of you
I come naked, bearing truth
I wish you to know it too
I wish you to know. . .
I would bleed myself for you
I would cut myself in two
I would cut my skin so smooth
Just so you would know. . .

Beneath the skin and bone
Beats a heart that you broke
When you took me for granted
I love you more than you know
Even after you've choked
The air from my lungs

Hold your breath now while I speak
As these words run past my teeth
See my eyes now as they weep
They weep for you, you know. . .
It's okay to disagree
But hear my heart now as it beats
See my blood now as it leaks
It leaks for you, you know. . .

Beneath the skin and bone
Beats a heart that you broke
When you took me for granted
I love you more than you know
Even after you've choked
The air from my lungs

And so I pray that you will find yourself
And what it is you're looking for
(Look to Him! Look to Him!)
Beneath the weight of your words
My heart bleeds

He bled and died
Not for your beliefs
Not so you could feel so self righteous
But so you could see He loves you
Just embrace this
Just embrace Him

He bled and died for you
And I would too

- posted by Jonathan@ 7:32 PM

 
Love. Yeah right. Feed me that line again my friend. Ignorance must really be bliss.

- posted by Jonathan@ 5:19 PM

 
I am in art class right now. Hmmm. . . I would like to say a lot of things, you know? Some things are just not meant to be said though I suppose. At least not on an internet website for the whole world to read. When shall I say it all then? Who knows, time is scarce in that area. Ahhhh, I should just sigh instead then. Just sigh and be contented. And give up on wishing for more time. And just be satisfied with memory. But. . . yes, no. That is the that of that.

- posted by Jonathan@ 1:20 PM

 
This weekend was awesome. The show was really fun, and I got to see my friends. It was lovely. I love you all.

- posted by Jonathan@ 3:21 PM

 
I heard it put like this:

Look at each Christian as a burning coal. When that coal is removed from the fireplace and left on it's own, it's going to slowly lose it's warmth and turn cold. The fire will burn out. But when that coal is with other coals, it burns brightly. So small groups right? That's like a fireplace. The coal is going to burn much better in that setting, because it has the other coals to help it. But, look at corporate worship as a bonfire. How much greater is the blaze! It can be seen for miles! And in a world so dark, that is greatly needed. And if Jesus is the fire, then why would you ever be satisfied in the fireplace, or out alone even? If you love God as much as you say, and you want to be with him so badly, then why would you ever pass up the opportunity to be consumed?

I don't understand people sometimes. It just doesn't add up to me. Doesn't seem to make any sense. And I've heard people say it's because the church is corrupt, or dead, or any other number of excuses. See, when I read the Bible, all I ever hear about the church in Christ's day is of the corruption of the Pharisees, and how spiritually dead they were. Yet Christ never neglected going to the temple to worship. Wherever he went, he always made a point to go to the temple to teach and fellowship with the local believers. If it was good enough for Jesus Christ, then it should be good enough for us. I don't even see how there could be debate over something like this. I always thought scripture was pretty clear on the subject. It really breaks my heart to see how misguided some people are. When we aren't working for God's side, then we are working for Satan's. There's no middle ground. When we go against the church, we are going against something Christ himself ordained. It was all his idea anyways. I don't know. I was in tears this week in church. And this isn't a rarity for me. I am moved by God's spirit in that place. I don't know how I could just pass that up.

- posted by Jonathan@ 7:23 PM