Man, I can't believe this has happened. What are we all going to do? This is scary. You just mean so much, and now, to be denied that. I wish I could talk about this. Dear God, please find a way to rectify this. I'm feeling very lost right now. How can things like this happen? This just can't be a part of your will. Why would you leave us like this? What good can come from this? I wish I knew what you were doing. You're just so hard to understand sometimes.

- posted by Jonathan@ 5:31 PM

 
SmellinEllen7: What up?
as warmth fades: I'm just sitting here wearing chick pants
SmellinEllen7: Flares??
SmellinEllen7: Bootleg?
SmellinEllen7: :-)
SmellinEllen7: Are they all glittery?
as warmth fades: no
as warmth fades: flares
as warmth fades: I think
as warmth fades: I don't know
as warmth fades: they're my sisters old pants
as warmth fades: I found them in the garage sale stuff
SmellinEllen7: haha
SmellinEllen7: Shhweet
SmellinEllen7: So hows everything?
as warmth fades: well, it's all kind of squished if you know what I mean
as warmth fades: there's not much room
as warmth fades: hahahaha
SmellinEllen7: HAHAHAHA
SmellinEllen7: I would imagine that it wouldnt...
SmellinEllen7: OHHHHHHHHH
SmellinEllen7: Im degrating you
SmellinEllen7: *wink*

- posted by Jonathan@ 9:26 PM

 
The concert last night: It was awesome. It was super core and super great. If you weren't there than you missed out. I mean, it's not very often that I throw my guitar on the ground. And if you were there, than thanks for coming because you helped make it fun. It seriously was one of the sweetest shows we've played ever. Better Than A Kick and all. Zach kicked my guitar, and during one song he kept running into me from behind while I was singing so I would hit my mouth on the mike. And I accidentaly punched Nate's guitar sending him wildly out of tune. And Zach was like, beating Tim's bass drum with his bass during the last song. The damage incured was well worth it. It was so much fun. Next show we find some stuff we can break. Seriously. Like, how about your face. . .

Cells tonight: It was fun. Even though it got moved indoors. Mike and Joey even came! Sweet.

Plans for October: Dashboard Confessional, MxPx, Brand New, and Piebald(!) on the 3rd. Norma Jean, Stretch Arm Strong, Project 86, and Leven on the 25. No go on Michelle Branch though now. It's on a school night and the tickets are a little too expensive. Too bad.

Still praying for: A job. Someone tell Walden's to just hire me already.

Thankful for: My new computer. It's sweet.

Done.

- posted by Jonathan@ 8:06 PM

 
I'm typing on a new awesome computer. That's right. We got a new computer. This computer even has sound! I can't remember the last time we owned a computer with sound. Needless to say, Wednesday when I got home from band practice and saw the computer I promptly downloaded Kazaa and began my musical pirating. I'm currently listening to Sigur Ros songs of their first album which I downloaded. Yep, I'm rock. I have another story to post, but I want to wait until I write another so I'm always one ahead. Plus I'm not quite satisfied with how the finished one turned out. I think I want to work on it more, which I guess makes it unfinished. So, ummmm, yeah. How come only three people have commented on my story? I looked at Mike's page and he has a lot more than that. I mean, I know everyone hates me and stuff, but come on. Don't be a hater.

- posted by Jonathan@ 8:07 PM

 
Hey, I added comments on the short story site and Post-Everything Music. Go leave a comment on the story one if you read it. Thanks.

- posted by Jonathan@ 7:37 PM

 
Man, everyone else is so lame. I just figured this out. See, it's not that I'm uncaring or unemotional--I'm just not lame. Ha.

I really should just quit.

- posted by Jonathan@ 6:39 PM

 
Also, me and Hetzel's music blog (Post-Everything Music) is up too. The link's on the left. Check it out.

- posted by Jonathan@ 5:37 PM

 
I have the short story blog up. The link is on the left by the other links. There is one story up so far.

- posted by Jonathan@ 5:17 PM

 
I went paintballing today. It was the greatest ever. I played at the Amundsen's house, with them and a bunch of their friends, most of which I've met before at concerts and stuff. You have to see the set up they have. They've built a whole little paintball city. It's so insane. There's like two and three story towers and stuff. You seriously have to see it to believe it. I can't wait to do it again.

I wrote another story tonight. I just got finished with it. I have an idea though that I think will make it a lot better. I'll rewrite it later. I'm going to post it on a seperate blog soon and I'll post both versions so you can see what I mean. I writ life.

- posted by Jonathan@ 11:18 PM

 
The comment about paint on my hands was from the other day when we started working with some paints in my art class. And it seriously was the most beautiful thing I could think of at the time. And not the color of the paint, but just the fact that it was on my hands. It made me feel so much more alive to know that I was creating something with my hands. I feel like so much more of an artist. I feel like an "artist" and that's awesome. I've never worked art in this medium before so it's a great new experience for me. I'm starting to open up so much more now. I started a photo journal and have been starting up photography, also as part of an assignment for my art class. I'm just learning so much. And if you remember a long time ago I talked about wanting to write a short story but not knowing how and not knowing what to write about. Well, I did write that one about the iced tea stand, but I've written another and it's going to be published soon an Mike's short story site. I'm really proud of it. I just wrote it this afternoon because Mike asked me to write something for his site awhile ago and I just sort of figured out what I was doing today. Basically, I'm feeling awesome about being me in an artistic sense. I'm even working on a new song that is very different from anything I've ever written before. I think it's good that I'm branching out. Musically and otherwise. I want to be a folk artist. Wow, I typed all of that without stopping at all. I'm just getting really excited by all these new opportunities.

- posted by Jonathan@ 8:59 PM

 
I have blue paint on my hands. That is so beautiful. I love the color blue.

- posted by Jonathan@ 9:17 PM

 
A Landscape

I would have painted you a picture. And I would have done it with care. I just wish you would have cared. I'm just so jealous of honesty. And I swear you're bad for my health. So I keep my hands busy with simple chords, and I shut my eyes tightly when I was sing. Just to block you out. I'm just so tired of watching you walk away. I swear you're bad for my health.

But I found this pill to help me out. So I swallow it down with my own saliva, that gathers in my mouth at the mere thought of sleep and the dreams to follow. Where I'd lay with you under the moon, until the sun comes to ruin us.

And I'd whisper to the stars, "Look at us. You have no control over this. Turn your faces apart from us, for we don't need your light. We shine so brightly on our own."

But it was only a dream. I swear you're bad for my health.

- posted by Jonathan@ 10:00 PM

 
Dudes, I have discovered the greatest song ever devised by a mere mortal. Now, as you read the lyrics, imagine the most dark and gloomy black metal song imaginable. . . if it had been created for a gameboy game. So, without further adieu. . .

Me And My Black Metal Friends

In the mountains of Norway, where the weather is cold,
there's nothing to do, except kill each other, and play guitars in the snow.

Excluding the scary paper make-up that they wear,
they resemble Ink and Dagger, if Ink and Dagger had long hair.

They're pretty evil, and they do not like God.
I don't care if they burn down churches,
but they'd better not fuckin' touch the synagouge.

I befreinded them.
Bye bye mom, it's now me and my black metal friends.
I befriended them.
Bye bye franklin, it's now me and my black metal friends.

They have names like Igor, Helthor, Angor,
but then again, it's not exactly like "in living color."
I kinda hope they move here, so I don't have to pay import prices,
but I'm kinda afraid that they'll move near me,
because, they're not nice.

I befreinded them.
Bye bye mom, it's now me and my black metal friends.
I befriended them.
Bye bye franklin, it's now me and my black metal friends.

Come on Ilene!
Come on Ilene!
Come on Ilene!
Come on Ilene!

- Atom from Atom and His Package

- posted by Jonathan@ 12:45 PM

 
Oh yeah! Look at me!


You are Alanis Morissette! You've have some good
stuff come out, and even landed a spot with Ben
Affleck (gag) in a movie where you played God.
But what happened to you after Jagged Little
Pill? A little too ironic, don't you think?


Which Rock Goddess or (gag, gag) Pop Princess Are You?
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Okay sorry, it's early. . . Don't judge me!


- posted by Jonathan@ 12:39 AM

 
Megan Is My Friend to the Max!

I wrote a letter to forget her forever
Could be the weather or just better
Forever

Say’d that you would, baby
Do what you could, baby

I’m still the liar, for desire I’m on fire
You’re still the only one for me
Can’t you see?

Say’d that you would, baby
Do what you could, baby

Say you miss, having me to push around
Say you wish that you’d put me in the ground
You’re never happy with anything I do

- "Reggie" of Reggie and the Full Effect

Yeah, it really doesn't have anything to do with his friend Megan. But I mean, the man writes songs called "F.O.O.D (Are you Hungary?)" so, I'm not to suprised. Megan is my friend to the max!

- posted by Jonathan@ 12:21 AM

 
The show was really good last night. We played tightly and had a lot of fun. Things are only going to get better from here. Also, I have some of the greatest news that I've ever been able to share on this blog. I, Jon Taube, on the date of October 29, am going to a Michelle Branch concert. Yes, I know that I am the luckiest man alive. Thank you.

- posted by Jonathan@ 7:29 PM

 
Untitled

Pretending to sleep so we could stay in that moment.
Alone in that moment.
Hands moved gradually--to grasp hands;
As fingers traced lips,
which kissed hands and faces.
Did I really believe our moment could last?
Or did downcast faces bring me back to reality?
I remember that night.
This is proof of it.

6/26/03

- posted by Jonathan@ 1:46 AM

 
Happenings

- Dude, the new Blogger features are kicking! There's a whole bunch of them and they're all awesome. It just gets better all the time.

- We've got a show tommorrow. It's at The Overflowing Cup. Same time/same place as last week. I love our new stuff so much.

- I miss people I love. Yes, I love you.

- School is so hard. I need to do more homework.

- Fields of Industry is a weird band. I'm listening to them now.

- I watched The Patriot the other night. It's a sweet movie.

- I need more sleep.

- I found a cassette player with a microphone so I'm going to record to Fair Verona songs onto a tape. If you want one I'll try and get one to you. It'll be a long, long time though.

- I'm really jealous of Mike Smithhart. I heart his short story site. He asked me if I want to write for it. I would love to more than anything. Now I just have to figure out how to write.

- Watch for a new site that me and Hetzel are making together. It's going to be cool. If you're into that I guess.

- That's it for now. Don't be a hater.

- posted by Jonathan@ 10:16 PM

 
Why am I always the bad guy? It's not like it's even my fault at all. I mean, you could try getting a clue sometime. Or you could at least come and talk to me to my face. Just stop being so false. Why are we friends when we're together, but then I hear all these stupid things you say? It's not like I talk about you behind you back. I gave that up a long time ago and I just decided to love you. I'm not trying to change you. I'm letting you be who you are, but you can't let that get in the way of everything else. It's not like you're the only person involved. I just corrected you where you were wrong. Grow up and deal with it already. I'm not the bad guy. I'm really sick of being made out ot be the bad guy. Why don't you just quit if you don't like it? I worry about your motives anyways. It just frustrates me that you can't just be honest with me. What did I ever do to deserve this? It's not like I chose to be who I am. I just am. And I don't have to change for you or anyone else. Maybe someday you'll figure this out about yourself too. Don't try and be something you're not, but just because you are something doesn't make you right.

- posted by Jonathan@ 5:56 PM

 
I haven't updated in a while. I've been busy with school work and the band. Sorry to everyone that I haven't emailed back yet. It seems like I don't have time for anything. I'm so tired, I just want to go to bed.

- posted by Jonathan@ 9:27 PM

 
I had other things that I was going to say but I feel I must address an issue.

"I'm cool with it now. I just wonder what if? You know?"

I do not say things like this to drive anyone crazy. I do it because I can't really say what I want to say. It's hard to put things into the open. I know this is supposed to be my place to do that, but some things are just too personal. It's hard sometimes. I just want to be content. And I feel like I'm doing a good job of it, but I'd rather just not dwell on things. I just want to move on and not think so much about any of it. I know this is just as vauge and is probably making you more upset with me, but you will just have to deal with it. That's what I'm doing. I'm dealing with it. The level of your expectations is directly related to the level of your dissapointment when something doesn't go as planned. I had pretty high hopes. But I've realized that hope doesn't sustain anything. I'm just trying to learn to not put so much faith in it.

- posted by Jonathan@ 9:54 PM

 
Yesterday we helped my sister move into her dorm. Today school started. The band has a show Friday. We have a new website too. Check it out here.

I'm cool with it now. I just wonder what if? You know?

- posted by Jonathan@ 7:43 PM